Mumma Struggles

Today the stresses of dealing with my daughter and the connected feelings of hopelessness have taken on very real physical symptoms. My hands and feet are tingling uncontrollably and I have poor coordination in both. I have had several bouts where I cannot see a severe migraine has set in today. Normal migraine control methods are having no effect. I wanted to try loading a meditation earlier but could not despite trying to remember the word "meditation", how to locate the saved links to them on my computer nor format the words to google search one. My stomach is so very angry and irritable. It feels like I might begin vomiting uncontrollably at any second.

I first noticed my daughter was struggling with demons when she was in kindergarten.  Now she is nearing the halfway mark of her sixth-grade year. I have never stopped trying to get the help she needs. Our life has never been easy. I feel like every day I have been a parent has been a huge challenge. I feel very much alone. My daughter's father is not involved in day to day parenting of our daughter. I have spent years trying to get him actively involved but he continually resists all attempts to get our daughter the help she needs. As recently as days ago I have tried to get him to understand how serious the concerns affecting our daughter are. But he is not hearing me. The full extent of his parenting is her spending 48 hours by-weekly with her. Currently, daughter is SO ANGRY. She is attempting to control or manipulate all aspects of life at home. She gets angry anytime anything does not go her way. She is frequently physically violent. The simple act of askin...